Most days, I feel positive and energetic. I’m grateful to carry that within me — maybe it’s in my genes, maybe it grew stronger as life stretched me. It doesn’t really matter where it came from; it’s simply a part of me.

But even with a smile on my face, there are days, like yesterday, when I collapse inside. I felt sad, empty, and tired in both body and soul. I didn’t want to talk. I didn’t want to move.

This time, instead of forcing myself to “stay positive,” I allowed the sadness to be there. I whispered to myself: “You’re allowed to feel this. It’s okay to be sad, even if you are usually the happy one.”

I went to bed early, letting my body and mind rest. I slept from 7 p.m. until 5 a.m. the next morning. In the middle of the night, when I woke up, I repeated the same thing: “It’s okay. I am allowed to feel sad.” By morning, I felt lighter — as if my sadness had been digested, like my mind had eaten all it needed, and what remained was calm.

I spent my morning with affirmations, reading a good book, listening to a song that somehow matched its vibe, and enjoying my coffee under the morning sun after the rain. The shop still had raincoats hanging beneath the parasol, waiting for anyone who might want to purchase one. A simple, light feeling to start my day.

This reminded me of the past, when I was diagnosed with anxiety disorder. My mind used to be filled with tangled worries — fear of the future, endless “what ifs,” and a constant pull into negativity. Back then, even joy was hard to find. Someone suggested mindfulness and meditation, and although I didn’t know how to begin, the practice somehow started to find me.

Today, my mind is still busy, but instead of fear, it holds two stronger voices:

• Reflection — looking back on what happened with gratitude, seeing the lessons hidden there.
• Manifestation — believing the future is being built step by step, and things will only grow better.

And when those thoughts quiet down, I simply let myself rest in the present.

💛 If you’re reading this and carrying sadness, I want you to know: you are allowed to feel it, too. Positivity doesn’t mean denying our pain. Strength doesn’t mean pushing it away. Sometimes the most healing thing we can do is let our emotions be fully felt — and trust that, when the time is right, they will gently pass.

Written on 20^th Aug 2025. Thank you.